[1:49 p.m.] : [2004-11-04]
that's it, i am so damn sick and tired of dreaming about that freaking girl. it is pissing me off. the closest thing i have to a reoccuring dream is just a reoccuring theme. man, my dreams are melodramatic, it's kind of unnerving. last night in one of these dreams i tried to actually talk to her about it. tried to get anything out of her and it was like pulling teeth just trying to get her to even acknowlege me. and the whole thing was set in/around this parking lot and she was waiting for someone to come pick her up and i was standing in the rain being ignored and stuff. it would of made for great television. the thing that sucks most is i don't know. i don't know that she is really ignoring me, there is no contact to say that is the case but the fact that there is no contact leads to little other conclusions. what else am i supposed to do? my dreams have turned against me. ...just like her?
nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these, |