[12:32 p.m.] : [2005-04-18]
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"i don't know if it is going to be just a temporary leave of absence or a beatles type self imposed hiatus. but i need to do some things for me and ringo needs some time to create." that was my response to an email from jenny asking if i'm really never going to talk to her again, which happend to be the topic of a long painful drawn out and overly female dramatic instant message sesion last wednesday. talks kept breaking down when simple and plain statments where misunderstood. she can not understand that certain demands of time and concern i can not give to her because (simply) i'm not her boyfriend. yes, i'll keep in touch because we did decide to stay friends, but that involves me being in a much removed level of interaction and support. okay, that is atleast how i feel about this. please anyone, am i wrong in this? i'm open for criticism cause i've spent near the last year now thinking she needs to move on and she's spent the last year claiming i'm an ass and don't care(which i am perfectly willing to accept and move on with my life). if i am wrong then wow, i really am a jerk. however, i don't think this is the case. it's just that she is still hitting me up as her only support about everything from midterms to stubbing her toe in the bathroom. and quite frankly it is not only old it is also hard to care at the moment. back to last wednesday, she's whining at me for two hours. two hours and i don't know if she even knew what she was complaining about after the first five minutes or so, it's just a long loop i've heard thirty times before(probably more). the only thing that was keeping me sane was the small email exchange i had going with sarah about her learning to play the harmonica. i mean seriously sarah is rad. so why/how am i (a year after i broke up with this girl) supposed to give a rats ass about stuff i didn't care about while i was going out with her? i just know the whole beatles thing is going to be lost on her and i should of just said nothing at all. but oh well, i need to go now and clean the apartment cause sarah is coming over later and we're going to make an oversized twister mat. |
