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i've only been working a couple of weeks and all ready my sleep has turned to crap. it's supposed to be the other way around right? i mean a semi steady schedule should help me regulate my sleep patterns and stuff. but it isn't. i've been staying up much later than usual and finding it harder to fall asleep. at first i was just not very tired, but after two days of only three hours a night my body was fatigued and i've been dragging for the last week. still no good sleep. last night i layed in bed for and hour and a half at three in the morning trying to sleep. it sucks, i want to sleep. i don't want to not be sleeping and be perpetually tired and then one day wake up to find out i've made up a whole cast of imaginary friends and have the down fall of modern western civilization in my grasps... how ever that would be an infinitly cool revelation.
the point is i don't know what variable to change, i don't think i let it but maybe work is stressing me in some way that i am blind to. maybe it's just the fact that i have not excersied regularly in the last three months as a result of breaking my freakin foot. however i do realise that of all the problems it could be i know i would sleep easier if i was not alone.
yes, i know, if i where not alone in bed would i be "sleeping", te-he, and the answer is yes. there is something relaxing about cuddling and or spooning that is just very nice and comforting and that helps me sleep. of course i could be wrong on this, the above is just a statement from brief research i feel that i should and need to conduct a lot more field reaserch on this matter. i'm not saying i need a whole fluzzie army to sleep with a different girl every night. while yes i will recognize that may be the new american dream, i would be will to have just one to cuddle with.
i realized all this after about fourty five minutes of not sleeping and for the next half hour or so felt terribly alone.
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