[10:39 a.m.] : [2005-04-13]

if you where here to ask me for that update i promissed in the last entry, i'd just give you this cagey little smile where you'd see the teeth in the corner of my mouth and maybe i'd retract and blush a little i went out in the rain and then suddenly everything changed. i don't know where i am i don't know where i've been but i know where i want to go. but it would be only for a second or two and it would be just for show to let on i've things in mind and then for the hell of it i'd tell you how good the new bright eyes album is so you think i'm trying to avoid the topic, like i'm trying to keep it like a secret so i thought i'd let you know. these things take forever, i especially am slow. but now i don't care, i could go anywhere with you and i'd probably be happy. i picked up i'm wide awake , it's morning last night at amoeba and it is ever so good. i will admit it wasn't high on my list because to be perfectly honest i was expecting so much out of Lifted and it wasn't bad... i just wasn't everything i had put my faith in it to be. but man this new disc is so good so if you want to be with me, with these things there's no telling we just have to wait and see. besides maybe this time it's different, i mean i really think you like me. and i'd probably ramble on a bit more on the album before casually inserting the part about listening to it laying on my bedroom floor holding hands with sarah(that's her name) and we played threw a couple of other albums, some cash and ben folds and then i'd give that smile and shrug again and in reference to the evening as a whole say something like "i liked it." and then i would be done and talk about going to taco bell... but the smile would still be there

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