[7:16 p.m.] : [2003-09-23]

what day is it? : i think i almost have a girlfriend. no really i'm confused.: i don't know how to feel about it/her.: i just woke up from a nap and i worked this morning and i was unsure enough without this sleep hang over. : i spent sunday evening watching tv at her apartment, it's just around the bend of arlington.:i'll look at my watch or a calender and figure it out some time. : we went walking and stayed out till four and when we said good night i'm almost sure she wanted me to kiss her goodnight.: ugly cassanova on the radio and the only light in the room coming from the computer screen doesn't help oreint me. : i don't know how to feel about it, she's really nice, but there is stuff. i work with her and we've been over that coworker thing before. : i dont know. : i think i've been changing and it worries me because looking in i can see it, but i didn't notice as it was happening. and now i'm not sure if i'm more or less so i don't know what i want if i'm trying to fill a hole but i have a shovel ready to dig and either way i coould go with it.: i settled for a hug but there was too much hesitation leading to it i should of gone in face first. maybe i can't braeeeeeaekeak myself after all. Aaaaurrrrrrrrrgg. ic eon the sheets look at the floor as soon as i can walk i wlak out the door and never i can't make a choice stop llokin at old an phototgraphs look liek we took it at gun points o we i can't say yes the ot decission to just go wiht ist had to laugh i want to answer i don't know dna i think iwould mean it ice on the sheets a weeks worth i don't have a phone number or a last name? i think i mightof pay and and all the more day you got the way you look at yourshoes anddwayne gave me his advice but i just cant take it. and if anyone where to ysay hey do you like ___ say hey- hey i'm out of breath

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