[4:02 p.m.] : [2003-06-12]
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Last night I dreamt that somebody loved me no hope - but no harm just another false alarm i had a dream last night. one like the one i had had... when was it?, two weeks ago now i think it was. the one i told her about on the phone. it was a lot like that dream right down to the parts i ommitted for both of our sakes because they didn't really add to the story in a manner that i felt like discussing. in fact i still don't feel like discussing them, i've just had enough time to not want to discuss them that it didn't bother me as much. Girlfriend in a coma, I know, I know - it's serious there were times when I could have 'murdered' her (but, you know, I would hate anything to happen to her)NO, I DON'T WANT TO SEE HER Do you really think she'll pull through? there were times when I could have 'strangled' her (but, you know, I would hate anything to happen to her) WOULD YOU PLEASE LET ME SEE HER! Do you really think she'll pull through? Let me whisper my last goodbyes I know - IT'S SERIOUS of course last nights was more anoying becuase it was like the dream was on a loop because it kept happening over only the other person changed not once not twice but thrice.
Sweetness, sweetness I was only joking
when I said I'd like to
smash every tooth in your head i've been listening to the smiths quite a bit the last week or so and there is a lot that is standing out to me. a lot of it i've been finding to be strangely comforting.
when you laugh about people who feel so
very lonely
their only desire is to die
It was dark as I drove the point home
and on cold leather seats
well, it suddenly struck me
I just might die with a smile on my
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