[5:25 p.m.] : [2003-01-03]
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everything on the apartment is go. it looks like i'll be leaving the 12th. it's funny cause the first time i moved to california i had no intention of going to make freinds or go to school it was just for a little change of location, now i'm going back for school(?) and friends. of course when i came back to texas not everything came out how it was planned so i'm wondering what i'm doing, really. of course it's because everything about leaving is closing in on me so quickly, i was talking to steven last night and mentioned i'm leaving in ten days and he was like what!? that's sooner than you said and i mentioned i had said i was leaving mid january, it just came sooner than prefered. it's all just one of those two sided things, i mean packing is one of the most depressing things to have to see everything you own in boxes in a room with no pictures on the walls. it bring everyting else down, but i know it's something i should do. aside from two people i'm wasting here, when i was out in davis i didn't feel like i was suffocating in life. i think it's for the best, there is always going to be some degree of doubt about everything especially when it involves moving two thousand miles i am looking for to the drive, i like to drive and aside from the stretch between san antonio and el paso and that last hundred miles up highway 5 i really like the drive. the el paso stretch is just so damn long five hundred and fifty mile of nothing. the last stretch of highway 5 is just the wait of being so close. ...anyways i need to get to work, only one week left of that here, and i am determinded to write Doug up atleast three times before i leave, that was my second new years resolution as of last night, i hate him sooo much! i'm sure i'll rant about moving again soon. good night |
