[10:14 p.m.] : [2011-04-09]
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Driving off the cliff - Smashing on the stones Tossed out to the sea - To drift, and sink, and sleep. I didn't sleep last night. I worked through the hours, in the dark, long after I should have gone to bed. I finally stopped and fell asleep somewhere around one this afternoon. I should have been somewhere at four but I didn't go. I slept until six and then ate the first thing I'd had in almost twenty four hours. I take shit care of myself, maybe I should be less surprised by the fact that some of my favorite songs are all about car crashes.
Drive and drive and drive - But where's the finish line? Is there a trophy there for me? Oh, any consolation's fine.
Drag my body - Drag my body -
Drag me from this constant car crash There was a text on my phone waiting for me when I woke up. It told me there was a get together tonight. After a long sleepless night and an afternoon full of strange dreams the idea of being with people sounded good. I recognized I needed to leave the seclusion and solitude of the condo. And yet, here I am. I left the house for food, came home and ate and never left again. The gathering started two and a half hours ago. I take shit care of myself, and telling myself to change continues to not bring change.
Oh, I won't live like that - In the shrapnel of the past |
